Mainstream is too Mainstream (Karanasan ng Batang Manunulat)

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Published 03/28/2014 in Definitely Filipino Blog

With whooping 1234567890 Reads!

Ano kayang mararamdaman mo kung akda mo ang magkaroon ng ganyan kadami ng reads? Ano kaya ‘yung feeling na mismong publisher ang kakatok sa pinto mo para ma-publish ang story mo? At ano kaya ang pakiramdam na magkaroon ng libo-libong readers? Sarap ano?

Pero, wala na yatang mas sasarap pa sa pagtupad ng mga pangarap mo. Wala na yatang mas sasarap pa kapag ganap ka nang manunulat. Samahan n’yo ako mag-flashback tungkol sa kuwentong manunulat ko. :D

Wattpad ang unang naging vehicle para maipakita sa mundo ang mga akda ko. Dahil baguhan pa ang lola mo, explore-explore muna. Sinubukan kong i-adopt ang style of writing ng mga tao doon.

Example:

Lakad.

Lakad.

Lakad.

O_O

Nakita ko siya sa dulo ng corridor. Oh my gosh! Kinikilig ako! *hampas sa wall*

 Pero hindi ako tumagal. Alam ko naman kasi simula’t sapul kung ano ang proper way of writing. Tsaka, hindi naman effective sa akin ‘yung ganyang klase dahil wala rin namang gaanong nagbabasa ng mga “jeje” story ko. Naisip ko, hindi ko spotlight ang Wattpad. Pansamantala kong iniwan ang profile ko doon hanggang sa mapadpad ako sa Definitely Filipino Blog.

Pinag-aralan ko rin ang mga post dito. Isang bagay ang napansin ko, lahat ng post sa site na ito, may saysay. Kahit simpleng pamamahagi lang ng karanasan, may matututunan ka. Kaya naisip ko, bakit hindi ko subukan? Iyon nga, sinubukan ko nga. One article after another, kung ano-ano pinagsusulat ko. Hanggang sa lumagpas ako ng 100 articles. Taray ‘di ba?

Blessing na maituturing ang mapabilang sa Definitely Filipino Bloggers Int’l. Sa pamilyang ito ko kasi na-meet ang mga taong kapareho kong may matinding passion sa pagsusulat. Dedicated sila sa mga ginagawa nila. Nakakahawa po sila pagdating sa dedication.

Sa more than 100 articles, kasama na doon ang “My Firsts with Him”, ang una kong nobela. Hindi ko inaasahang matutuwa at magugustuhan ito ng mga OFW sa Mga Balitang Pinas Facebook page. Marami sa kanila ay nagpasalamat dahil kahit papaano raw, para silang naging high school at kinilig-kilig ulit. Ako naman, nagpapasalamat din dahil binigyan nila ng oras para basahin ang akda ko. Siyempre, laking pasasalamat ko rin sa nanay ko sa writing world, si Mommy Joyce na nag-share ng story doon sa page.

Dahil nakatapos ako ng isa, nakagawa pa ako ng “Casanova Newbie” at “Perfectly Imperfect”. Pasingit-singit ang iba’t ibang articles. Manunulat na nga ba ako? Hindi ko alam pero may gusto pa akong marating eh. Gusto kong makita ang pangalan ko “in print”.

Dumating ang qualifying exam for our School Newspaper. Siyempre, sumali ang lola mo.  Nandiyan kasi iyong word na “try”. Pumasa ako. End of story. Joke lang.

Huwag muna, mahaba pa naman buhay ko. Ayun nga, second year of College, kahit nangangapa ay natutunan ko ang pagkakaiba ni Feature writing at News writing. Goosebumps here, there and everywhere noong nakita ko ang gawa kong article sa school paper namin. Ang sarap sa pakiramdam titigan ng pangalan ko. Doon ko talaga nasabing, “Writer na nga ako!”

Taken from my Instagram account. Follow me @memealberts

Taken from my Instagram account. Follow me @memealberts

Sa loob ng isang taon, hindi nalang ako pang-fiction writing. Mas nahuhubog na ako ngayon. Adobo lang ang peg, habang tumatagal, lalong sumasarap(Hehe). Versatile at resilient, ika nga nila. Alam kong hindi big deal kasi wala namang fans na magce-celebrate ng achievement ng idol nila. Isa pa, wala naman akong fans. Readers na awesome, meron!

Ang daming opportunity na dumating sa akin habang part ako ng Publication staff ng school. Una, nakapunta ako sa isang writing workshop kung saan nandoon si Bebang Siy at Eros Atalia. Marami pang seminar na parating sa summer. Wuhoo!

Bakit ako nag-share? Wala lang. Ngayong gabi ko kasi naisip na hindi ko kailangang maging mainstream katulad ni Denny (may-akda ng Diary ng Panget) at ni Alyloony (may-akda ng Operation: Break the Casanova’s Heart) para maging masaya sa pagsusulat. Kung gusto mo, eh ‘di isulat mo. Malawak na larangan ang pagsusulat. Kung rejected ka dito, eh ‘di sumubok ng bago. Tsaka, hindi sa pagsikat natatamasa ang saya ng pagsusulat.

Kung tunay kang manunulat, ang isang tapos na akda ay achievement nang maituturing. Ang recognition at rewards, bonus nalang iyon. Iyon ang pananaw ko. Ewan ko nalang sa iyo.

Tsaka, lakas loob nalang din sa mga bagay-bagay. Kung hindi ako naglakas-loob kumuha ng qualifying exam, siguro patuloy na matutulog ang ibang kakayahan ko.

Huling hirit na: PASSION. Huwag mapagod sa isang bagay na passion mo kahit gaano kahirap. :D

Love-love!

ememalberts

3/29/2014 12:48 AM

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Teenage Issue: When God Says “NO”

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Graduate of BS Biology, Ateneo De Manila University

That’s how I see myself in the future when I was a senior in high school dreaming to enter one of the most prestigious and well known schools in our country(Okay, now I’m writing the school’s name unlike before, I decided to go with honesty from now on). I’ll be telling my story when God definitely said “no” to me. I was doubtful of Him at first but it turned out well in the end. Scroll down for the rest of the story. :)

If you ask me know, I’m a proud Psychology major. I’m still studying a pre-med course but I can say that I love Psychology now more than Biology.

I believe I’m fit for such a big name because I think I’m qualified enough for this grand university.

January 14, 2012. The most heartbreaking news reached me.

My name is not on the list of qualified applicants nor in the waitlisted people.

What will be my reaction?

Of course I cried. I considered myself stupid, dumb and insufficient. So so so insufficient. How come a consistent honour student can’t even pass Ateneo? I always asked myself that question.

It hurts me to see friends who qualified talk about Ateneo. It hurts me to hear people talk about big universities because I purposely didn’t take their exams seriously. In Filipino, “Pinaglaruan ko lang ang exam nila.”

Heartbroken and almost loosing self-confidence, I struggled to maintain my normal student life. I act as if the news of failing the ACET is no big deal (before it was). This is one of the biggest “NOs!” God gave to me.

One day, a call came. It’s from a College well known in Nursing. From that call, I got God’s good message. It’s about a visiting program of the school where we will be having the chance to experience our “first day in college”. Without hesitation, I set up the date and I will sure be going.

I’m too naive to take God’s message until I realized that He wants me to be in that school, not anywhere else.

I tried to refuse that call. Let me tell you the story. When I got the letter from UP (the one with your scores which I can say is a scary letter), I got a surprising 2.5 UPG (General Average). I didn’t pass any UP Campus that I applied for but a lot people encouraged me to try the process of Reconsideration. One of my doctors encouraged me too. I thought God was saying to me that “You still have the chance girl!”

With all my hopes recharged and optimism gauge turned full, I took the chance and waited until May 2012(the time where everyone else is enrolled and I am still undecided of my school). I passed both courses that I applied for reconsideration in UPLB. The Chemical Engineering course needs interview. It’s easy to answer and show them all my confidence. What’s not easy is to fake my enthusiasm for the course. I can choose to fake everything that I say but I didn’t. I’m not just good in lying so it showed out that I obviously don’t like engineering and I’m only making it as a gate pass to UPLB. I know from that moment while I am sitting in front of the panel interviewing me, I’m busted.

One professor told me too that once I entered their engineering, there’s no turning back. Shifting courses is not allowed.

My parents and I concluded that UPLB doesn’t want me and choosing to stay there keeps my doctor dream far away.  So I kept telling myself that “To all the universities who didn’t accept me, Haha! It’s your loss!”

I didn’t feel depressed or sad that night. That’s weird. Instead, I just feel light hearted like a big thorn was out from my wind pipe. I enjoyed the rest of the day with my cousins and a delicious dinner with my family in a restaurant.

It took me sometime to realize that God wants me to stay on a school that’s constantly blooming and had potentials of being something much known someday.

He wants me to experience how to be a student of a simple school with big dreams and hope for its students.

He wants me to belong in a place where people will love me because I am me. He wants me to belong to a place where my intellect and talents are to be nurtured. He wants me to study Psychology and make the most of it that’s why I am where I am.

Of all the things God wants for me, I think this is the climax: He wants me to experience how to be discriminated because of my school’s name.

Yes, my school’s name. Believe it or not, people will constantly judge you because of the institution where you belong. That’s the harsh reality; people have very high expectations of you when you present high performance. Maybe if you know me well, you will be one of the people who will ask “Bakit ka nandiyan?”

“Bakit ako nandito?” It is because God wants me here. I’ve met a lot good people in my school. They are so friendly and most of them brought me closer to God. I know the place where I belong is pushing me through my limits and I’m truly being tested. Studying Psychology is difficult but if you love it, you can get through it! A series of negative events happened and if I’m in Ateneo, maybe I’ll be totally broke.  Staying in Ateneo is a doorway to a further heart break, God knew it that’s why He said “NO!” when I asked Him to bring me to that school.

A lot of positive things are constantly happening to me now, and I know these things are all according to God’s plan. It took me sometime to appreciate the value of God saying “NO!”

When God says NO, don’t worry my friend. Something good or even greater is waiting for you. God has planned your life perfectly. Don’t be afraid to follow His lead and know that things can get better. I already wrote a lot of articles retelling almost the same story and I wish this one can inspire you too.

If God says no, then just patiently wait. Do you know what’s great about our Daddy God? You can even ask Him for patience. Just wait for His answers and they will all come in the most perfect time. I believe in all of that because in my seventeen years of existence, I have proved a lot about Daddy God. I might tell those stories to you soon. Have a good day and God bless!

Note: Road Trip, Back on Track and Refuel by Ru Dela Torre inspired me to write this.

ememalberts

2/16/2013

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Ang mga Natutunan ng Batang Manunulat

Published 2013/03/01 in Definitely Filipino Blog

Wala raw short cut sa tagumpay. Oo nga, tama sila.

Napakaraming beses na inggit na inggit ako sa mga Wattpad writers na million ang reads at libo-libo ang votes. Nagpapaka-bitter pa nga ako eh dahil ni minsan, hindi ako napansin sa Wattpad. Pero naisip ko, matatagal na palang naisulat ang mga kuwento nila, eh ako baguhan pa lang naman.

Mahirap naman yatang mag-pm isa-isa ng mga tao at magsabing “Hello po! Paki-read naman po ng story ko, babasahin ko rin po ang sa inyo. Thanks! <3”

Buti na lang, hindi pa ako umabot sa ganitong kahibangan, hehe (pero hindi ko sinasabing hibang ang mga gumagawa nito ha). Wala lang, naisip ko kasi aanhin ko ang libo-libong readers kung parang tinapay na inaamag naman ang akda ko?

Siguro, marami ang aaway sa aking readers and writers sa Wattpad dahil sa mga sasabihin ko, pero bahala kayo riyan. Hehe. Naisip ko kasi, kung palagi na lang akong susunod sa uso, kung palagi na lang akong magsusulat ng gusto ng ibang tao, hindi ko matutupad ang gusto ko para sa sarili ko. Gusto kong may istorya ako at  isusulat ko ito dahil gusto ko, hindi dahil naghahabol ako ng reads, hindi dahil naghahabol ako ng votes at likes.

Naisip ko rin na aanhin ko ang istoryang sinulat nang basta-basta kaysa sa istoryang talagang pinagpaguran at pinag-isipan. Kaya hindi ako naniniwala sa mga istoryang “on-the-spot” sinulat. Imposible, dahil simula’t sapul ay nasa isip mo na iyang isusulat mo. Kung ikaw ang tipo ng manunulat na bira na lang nang bira, aba, huwag mong aasahang maganda ang kalalabasan ng gawa mo.

Sabi kasi sa akin ng isang professor sa Filipino, ang pagsusulat ay parang adobo. Isulat mo ngayon, balikan mo sa isang araw, puwede mong mapaganda. Balikan mo ulit sa ibang araw, baka mas mapaganda pa. Kumbaga, habang tumatagal, lalong sumasarap. Doon ko natutunan na hindi ako dapat nagmamadali na mapaganda ang mga akda ko.

Bata pa ako, fresh na fresh pa; kumbaga bubot pa ang kaalaman sa pagsusulat, pero hindi naman siguro kaso iyon. Aanhin ko ang milyong reads at librong votes kung ang pagsusulat ko ay hindi naman seryoso? Aanhin ko ang lahat ng iyan kung hindi naman pulido ang baralira? Aanhin ko ang milyong reads at libong votes kung hindi naman “tunog” professional ang akda ko?  Importante sa akin ang mga iyan dahil nangangarap talaga akong maging isang “book author” balang araw.

Naisip ko rin, hindi ko na kailangang humiram ng Koreanong mukha o kahit sino pa man para mag-represent ng characters ko. Puwede naman sigurong ako mismo ang gumawa ng litrato nila sa isipan ng aking mga mambabasa, ‘di ba? Ang dami kong naisip na gawain ng maraming manunulat sa Wattpad na puwede namang hindi sabayan. Puwede naman pala akong gumawa ng sarili kong “style”.

Ang pagsusulat pala ay hindi talaga madali. Totoo pala ang sinasabi ng mga libro; mahirap ngang magsulat, pero kung gusto mo talaga, go ka lang nang go!

Isa pang bagay ang pinakanatutunan ko, kahit gaano katagal kang nagsulat, kahit ilang gabi kang hindi natulog para lang makasulat, kahit ilang beses ka nang muntik masagasaan dahil nasa isip mo ang plot mo, worth it iyan lahat kapag may nagbasa. Kahit limang tao lang ang nagbasa riyan at nagcomment, masayang-masaya ka na. Para kasi sa isang batang manunulat na tulad ko, ang simpleng comment at like ang best reward ng pinaghirapan kong akda. Dito ko naisip na hindi ko kailangan ang kasikatan sa Wattpad para maging masaya. Kahit bilang lang sa kamay ang nagbabasa ng mga akda ko, nagiging masayang-masaya na ako!

Ito siguro ang dahilan kung bakit mangiyak-iyak ako noong dumagsa ang likes sa Facebook page ko simula noong na-post ang My Firsts With Him sa Mga Balitang Pinas (isa ring Facebook page). Akala ko, hindi na madaragdagan ang mahuhumaling sa love story ni Colleen at Arvin. Sobrang nakatataba ng puso ang mga comments na natanggap ko.  Sa mga nagbasa, maraming-maraming salamat po ulit. Maraming-maraming salamat din kay Mommy Joyce na nag-edit at nag-post dito sa DF at pati sa MBP, mwuaaaahugggsss!

Isa pa, natuto akong lalong magtiwala sa Diyos. Cliché na raw kapag sinabi kong inspirasyon ko Siya, pero totoo naman eh. Ramdam kong gusto Niya talagang magsulat ako kaya ginagawa ko. Kapag nagsusulat ako, humihingi ako ng guidance Niya dahil hindi ko naman kayang gumawa ng akda nang mag-isa. Alam kong kailangan ko si Daddy God.

Tinuruan ako ni Daddy God at ng pagsusulat kung paano maghintay. Kasi, hindi nga naman nakukuha ang magagandang bagay nang mabilisan. Ilang buwan nga ba bago natapos ang My Firsts With Him bago ito minahal ng mga mambabasa?

Masaya na ako kung ano mang mayroon ako ngayon. Kung isa ka ring nangangarap na manunulat na tulad ko, huwag kang  magmadali. Tried and tested ko na iyan, mas maganda ang “slowly, but surely.”

Sana ay may napulot kayo kahit kaunting aral sa akda kong ito. Sana, mabasa ito ng ibang aspiring writers diyan sa tabi-tabi. Hehe. :P

Have a nice day po at God bless!

ememalberts, 4/11/2013, 11:32 pm

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Momentary Insanity

Published 2014/02/02/ in Definitely Filipino Blog

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Are you still sane?

Do you still have a hold of reality?

I have asked myself a lot of times.

Am I really still sane?

I have heard voices around me. I have seen things that I think others could not see. They are talking to me, following me. They are telling me things, stuffs that I know and things I have no idea of. I don’t understand them but most of the times they came into my senses. They cloud my head with thoughts and they give me a terrible headache.

They are everywhere. Talking, still talking to me. Telling me something I can’t easily decipher now. They steal my focus most especially when I’m at work or in school.

What are they? I can see people’s faces, people I once recognized: men in military uniform, school girls and boys, couples and so many other different people, even monsters! I know them, I do because they existed in my imagination. They are people and monsters I have given life through paper.

They should not be real!

They are only a part of imagination. Why are they talking to me?

They say they missed me but with utmost guilt I miss them to. What the hell?

They are roaming around saying I should go back to their world.

My heart is beating fast, my fingers almost bleed at the tight grip of my pen and the paper almost torn out of the pressure I am unconsciously applying with my pen. They are talking to me again.

Inside my dark and small room where crumbled pieces of paper loitered, coffee spilled on the table, an unsettling cold creeps in. On one side I sat rolled up to be the smallest target possible,  scared and terrified of the voices and faces haunting me. What’s happening to me?

No, I’m not crazy. Not yet.

I tried hard to close my eyes, steadied my breath and told myself that they are not real. It will take time to convince them to leave, to bring my life back to normalcy. I have told them to wait until I had my time to write and go back to their different worlds. Those are worlds that are formed by my powerful and boundless imagination.

I closed my eyes hoping for a good sleep. But nothing happened. When I woke up they are still there.

ememalberts

2/3/2014

Note: I wrote about them before I totally breakdown. Hehe. Don’t worry, I’m still sane.

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Perfectly Imperfect (Novel)

Queen bees are stereotyped as dumb, beautiful and powerful girls.Pero si Belle, kakaiba siya. Matalino si Belle, maganda, all in one ika nga nila. Respetado at kinatatakutan si Belle hanggang bumaliktad ang mundo sa Majestic Concept School. Nakahanap si Belle ng katapat niya sa katauhan ng scholar na si Xander.

Eh ano ngayon kung bumaliktad ang mundo ni Belle?

Ano naman kaya ang naging papel ni Xander sa buhay ni Belle?

Find out!

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10 Things I Hate About My Brother (Short Story)

Isang malaking pagsubok ang pagsusulat ng akdang ito. Hindi kasi madali ang magsulat ng mga akdang may ganitong tema(ADHD).

Description:

Kilalanin si Julia, ang isang mapagmahal na ate na hindi maiwasang mainis at magalit sa kakulitan ng kanyang kapatid na si Winston.

Isang pangyayari, isang pagkakamali ang babago ng lahat.

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