Merillie Alberto, RPM, MD
That’s the kind of name I will have in the future I say to myself. Grand as it sounds, it will never be easy. RPM is the closest I can have after I graduate my bachelor’s degree. What is an RPM? RPM stands for Psychometrician. A Psychometrician has the power(as the license allows it), to give out objective Psychological tests.
One day, I got to look back at my past blog posts. I was surprised to see how I proudly tell the world before that I will be a doctor someday, a medical doctor, a doctor, a real physician. Wow. Don’t underestimate the power of dreams.
I took Psychology to play it all safe. Yes, because out of all the Pre-med courses, Psychology looks like it will keep me safe if ever I will not proceed to Med school, at least I can have plenty of other jobs aside from teaching. Psychology is such a flexible field. And I’m here, now a third year student. Oh the end is coming near.
I was distracted by writing. This same semester, I admitted to myself that I want to take Creative Writing, whether it is a bachelor’s degree or master’s. I said I will be writing for the rest of my life and I mean it. I got a lot of plot ideas, works that can change the face of popular literature, works that are ambitious as the writer. Meme as a writer is an entirely different person from the ordinary Meme. She can do a lot of things more than you expect. She can change the world.
But I can’t imagine a life full of writing. I can’t imagine a life full only of writing. Writing all day, every day will drive me nuts.
I figure out I love being busy. I love doing things aside from the things expected from me. I can always do my part as a student (which keeps me busy) but I love writing for the school paper even more (which keeps me busier and gives me the highest level of stress a human could ever handle). Having two things at the same time is just so awesome (referring to Psychology and writing).
I always wanted to sell my Human Anatomy book and my Zoology book from second year. They cost quite a fortune and are good items to sell but I sort of feel that I will need them in the future. Maybe, maybe I will be taking medicine.
Then Comparative Anatomy, the subject is like talking to me. Like it tells me to take her seriously so I think I will. One day, I stood on the library space with all the medicine related books. It’s like seeing a guy for the first time and seeing the future unfold. It’s like “Oh my God, tomorrow I will be dating these books.” I don’t know where I got that. It just popped out of my mind.
So over the past week, I was thinking hard. Will I take Medicine or not?
Taking Medicine will mean another set of four years dedicated to learning. I see it like a bachelor’s degree with double the difficulty and work. I see it as throwing away the supposed to be youthful days for a start of career, Friday nights of gimmicks, the first salary and giving up the search for a potential mate (haha).
But it’s weird because I think I can give it all up for the dream to become a Physician someday. I want to be a Psychiatrist. Maybe, I can do more and take it to a higher level. I will tell it again, I may want to be a doctor. But (got a lot of buts here), this is not a joke. This is not a light decision to make. Entering Med school means I should finish what I started.
I am thinking hard about this, up to now. I just know I will be writing in the future, I will be writing forever but Medicine? Not so sure yet.
But maybe, I can help those who got their enemy’s up to their mind. Like the schizophrenics. People face a lot of things and things are way tougher for them because the enemy is on their mind. I would be glad to help them end those nightmares, if not end at least lessen them.
If I will evaluate myself, I think I got the brains, the traits that will make someone fit to be a MD but there’s one thing I should be sure of before everything else – the will.
The will to become a doctor, the desire to be one is the most important factor here because it’s not going to be easy. Being a doctor after all is not about the honor, pride and salary. It’s about service and sacrifice. So I should be sure that I really want it before I start dreaming about it.
(Too lazy to check grammar, sorry)